Reading the few blogs I've posted would make it obvious that I struggle with my weight and with my self-image. I last posted that I was quitting weight watchers and striking out on my own. My hope was to simply, casually watch what I eat, not obsess over the scale and move more.
Let's just say that I'm still working on all three and may be considering WW meetings once again.
In this weightloss journey, I have experienced my share of days that I've looked at myself in the mirror and when I didn't like what I saw, I cursed and called myself several names. I walked away from the mirror feeling ugly, worthless and like a failure. I question why I can't be blessed with a faster metabolism, or grab my belly in disgust, or berate myself at my lack of willpower.
But then I heard this song "Beautiful" by Gungor. The words are simple and pure. "You make beautiful things...You make beautiful things out of us." It took a few times of hearing those words for it to sink in. Regardless of what I see in the mirror and regardless of what the world sees or what it perceives as beautiful, I was made and am continually being made...beautiful by a perfect God that doesn't make mistakes.
Now that is not to say that every time I look in the mirror or get on the scale, I like what I see. That would be ridiculously optimistic. But when I hear that song or remember its chorus, it helps me to put things in perspective.
Arming myself with what is new knowledge to me, I know that I was lovingly made by God and when I was made I know that he looked at me as only a father could and called me beautiful.
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Hear Gungor's song Here.
